thursday 17 august 2006 9.25am - the death of my beloved daddy..

tat morning, daddy stil sent me to the mrt station to work..i din expect tat goodbye i said to him tat morning was my last goodbye to him..

legend says tat for those who passed away in the morning wil leave all meals for his children..daddy passed away without even having his breakfast..this showed tat daddy would rather starve than to leave us starving..

ppl aso said tat if it rains before the journey so tat the road would be cooler, it means tat the deceased dun wish his family and relatives to suffer soo much during the walking..it did rain on mon morning..daddy is soooo thoughtful..

we all know daddy loves and dotes on us alot..its juz tat he doesn't know how to express himself..daddy, we all love you too..you'll always be in our heart..daddy, rest in peace ok..dun forget to come into our dreams..we all miss you..

tears welling up in my eyes now..everyone thought i'm strong and stable enough to take good care of my mummy and sister..all my sadness were actually within me..i'm juz not releasing them out..no one knows..i can only swallow it myself..how i wish someone could be there for me to lean on and i could cry myself out..controlling deep inside is really damn tough..it gonna burst le..haizzzzzzz..

but i shall continue to be strong and think positively..there is stil a long way for my family to move on..daddy, pls bless us happiness, health and safety..we all love you..tml is the 7th day..muz come back to us ok..leave some markings so tat at least we know you're back..

since the demise of daddy, i realised how we should treasure family ties..we should spend more time together and care more for each other before its too late..yes i do regret for not doing so..and its too late..dun worry daddy, you'll always be our one and only beloved daddy in our heart for the rest of our lives..we wil always love you..

now deep in my heart, i know who are my true frens..no wonder the chinese says "huan nan jian zhen qing"..its really true..i'm really grateful to those who came to my daddy's wake..really appreciate it..after i've settled everything, i promise to ask you guys out for a meal..its my treat!! my treat leh..i hardly treat ppl one ok..sooo you all muz give face de hor..

as for the one who SHOULD come and yet did NOT, you better watch out..you know who you are..watever the reason you have, its totally FUCK!! moreover, its really not the right time for you to tell me all those shit tat day..dun be a fucker..but nvm..you wil get it back one day..trust me..someone wil do the same back to you as wat you did to me..in fact, you wil suffer double wat i've suffered..nabei cheebye..no matter how many sorry you said wun help..

i regret designing all these pics..i hate you!! my daddy gonna hate you too..irresponsible bastard..hmph!!










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in her own world at @ 3:25 PM